Tomorrow's just your future yesterday

47 hours, 38 minutes and counting.

the orchestra this morning was super cool. and I've been thinking in British ever since.

other than that, today was pretty blah. nothing of importance really happened. We played spoons in French, which was really dumb and would've been a lot easier with real cards, but that's really about the only thing that happened at school.

work was a little weird today though. had a bit of an awkward time for a bit, when Justin Doran came in and didn't leave for like half an hour. And, just my luck, he had a question about something and I was the only person around, so he had to ask me. First time I've talked to the kid in over a year, and I would rather have left it that way, thank you very much.

But then Bry showed up, and that made everything all better.

chemistry quiz tomorrow that I should be studying for but don't feel like it. same goes for sociology quiz tomorrow.

English conference also tomorrow, but I'm not too worried. I mean, come on...it's like 8:30 the night before my conference and I'm sitting online doing absolutely nothing. I'd say that's a pretty good sign.

oh. I'm on a mission for Leah Schaffer...she emailed my mum asking to see a picture of Schuey and his amazing baldness...but we don't have any. so...help? anyone?

Yeah, I'm updating for real this time. Mostly because I have nothing else to do. Well, except English quotes and research...which I can do a little later. I got all the rest of my homework done today, finally. Yep, the backlog of journals are finished, as well as my chem that's due tomorrow.

I didn't go to school today. It was partially because I was "sick" (translation: incredibly exhausted), but mostly I just didn't feel like going. Conveniently, my dad was home sick today, so I just told him I wasn't feeling too good, so he let me stay home. At least I got to see Bry this morning. But yeah, I went back to bed, but I couldn't sleep at all because I was feeling so guilty for not going to school even though I wasn't really sick...I shouldn't have, I know. It's not like I really missed anything (besides a sociology quiz that I can do in 5 minutes tomorrow), and hell, I needed a day off. Besides, I wanted to rest up so I'm not sick on Saturday.

This has been such a long week, even though it's only Wednesday. Mostly I'm sick of crying...the last day I didn't cry was Saturday. And even then, I almost did, but that's because of the movie I was watching, not something real. Monday...I don't know if I even want to talk about that, except that I just...lost it. It was horrible...my mother wants me to see a counselor. I really don't see how that would help at all, since I can hardly talk to my friends about my problems, let alone some random person I've never met before. And then Tuesday...I definitely spent the whole day crying on and off. Except, surprisingly, when my car died. Somehow I was calm through that entire ordeal...probably because by that point I just didn't have any tears left to cry.

I suppose I owe people an explanation for yesterday's...rant-ish thing. I guess there isn't too much to say about it, except that someone very dear to me turned 18 quite recently, but all they're interested in doing with it is renting XXX-rated movies and being able to escape from school whenever they want to. That and picking up more hours at work so then they'll never be around anymore.

On a somewhat happier note, I finally got to see Phantom this weekend...Saturday. Brilliant movie. And then Sunday I went and bought the soundtrack, and that's the only thing I've been listening to since then. I'm very seriously considering reading the novel for my English book next marking period.