Tomorrow's just your future yesterday

I just finished reading "Perks of Being a Wallflower" again. I don't know what it is about that book, but I just keep coming back to it. Especially in the fall. I dunno why, but it feels like such an autumn sort of book. And what was a little weird is that I just read Colin's most recent LJ entry, and it reminded me a lot of that book.

Other news, I saw Another Misprint this weekend, which was pretty cool, though I was disappointed in the lack of Phill. After the concert we played D&D for the first time in like a month. Laura and Nick showed up for about half an hour in the middle too, which was pretty cool cuz I hadn't seen them in absolutely ages. I've missed my Laura! XD So yay for seeing them, and yay for actually playing for once. We quit early, though, cuz I was practically falling asleep at the table, I feel kinda bad about it, but I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to make it for another hour and a half...and I honestly don't think it would've been fun for anyone to try to play when one of the players isn't conscious.

Also went to the game on Friday night, which was pretty fun. Bry surprised me and showed up halfway through the second quarter, which was awesome because I didn't expect to see him there. I love it when he does little things like that to surprise me. The band looks and sounds great, so yay for them...and I can't wait until homecoming. Someone will need to let me know what time alumni need to be at rehearsal that day, by the way.

So I've got a quiz in about half an hour that I should probably study for. But I don't feel like it, because I studied already today. Blah. First exams for all my classes are coming up soon too...bio on Friday, chem and anthro next Wednesday.

Bry and I are going to see Howl on Saturday, which I'm pretty excited for (if they have tickets still, that is...I need to go buy tickets today).

Love, honest love, requires empathy. It is a sharing - of joy, of pain, of laughter, of tears. Honest love makes one's soul a reflection of the partner's moods. And as a room seems larger when it is lined with mirrors, so do the joys become amplified. And as the individual items within the mirrored room seem less acute, so does pain diminish and fade, stretched thin by the sharing.
That is they beauty of love, whether in passion or friendship. A sharing that multiplied the joys and thins the pains.

- Drizzt Do'Urden in R.A. Salvatore's The Silent Blade

I woke up in a really good mood this morning, and have been like this all day. it's great. this has been a wonderful weekend in a lot of ways, I can't really even explain some of it. Friday night and yesterday afternoon I spent a lot of time with Bry, and I've seriously never felt closer to him than I have in the past couple days. we're having so many wonderful conversations, so much time to just talk, about anything and everything, it's pretty amazing.

last night was the party at Rachel's house, which was also extremely fun. there weren't too many people there, but that just makes it better, when it's a little group. we sat by the fire for a while, then played Apples to Apples...then spent like an hour and a half walking around Rachel's neighbourhood in the dark. I love walking around at night, but I hardly ever get a chance to because I don't like doing it alone. during that walk, we all talked about so much stuff...Loren and were reminiscing about marching band things, people were discussing Halloween, Loren and Travis were being generically adorable most of the time, interspersed with moments of disturbing innuendo that I think I could really have done without...we discovered that my mind occasionally joins everyone else's in the sewer if it's late enough at night and I've been fed enough chocolate ("it's Zeus! I mean, what else did he ever do?")...

maybe it's the weather. I love fall, a lot. sweatshirt weather makes me so happy. reminds me of going to the apple orchard with my family, of Halloween, of jumping into leaf piles and destroying all the raking my parents had just done...and knowing that, after the day is over, I have a nice warm bed and cozy pajamas to curl up in and sleep.

I've been feeling nostalgic lately. the weather and everything...it's been bringing back a lot of memories, or sometimes even just little flashes of images, or a brief feeling...I really can't even explain it, but I love it.

and, on top of all this good feeling...I'm reading "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" right now. it's just a feel-good kind of book. and I've never known random teen fiction books to be as deep as this one. well, deep isn't the word I'm looking for, but I can't think of the right word right now. but there was just one paragraph that seemed...I dunno. it just seemed to fit. I can't explain why, or how, it just did.

"I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't."