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god, I hate it when this happens. this morning started out awesome...had a random warm fuzzy feeling cuz of something I read this morning...

and then this afternoon all went downhill. work sucks (I hate the new system of carts, it doesn't make SENSE!), had a fight with Bry again...

I hate having to come downstairs to eat when I've been crying. it makes it so hard to eat. and now I'm here at work...god. I hate it. I hate feeling like this.

I hate the fact that I'm too emotional all the time and I don't know how to make it stop.

The worst part about this is that when I start hating myself like this, Bry's the one I want to turn to, to be able to talk to about it, and that makes me feel better. But I feel like I can't do that this time...because just wanting to be able to talk to him is what started this fight in the first place.

and I hate that. I hate feeling so helpless.

god. I need a hug. and of course...the one person that I really need a hug from is mad at me.