reminiscing...or something
May. 26th, 2005 09:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
uberniftacular*sigh* I know I should be feeling...something...right now, but I don't know what...and I don't think I really feel anything.
it's hard to believe it's almost over. that after tomorrow, there's a lot of people I'll probably never see again. tomorrow...god, this is it. the end of...everything I've ever known, sort of.
I guess it's just hard to fathom. I feel like it shouldn't be me already. like I should still be one of the kids who's dealing with their older friends going off and graduating, not like I actually am one of the older friends now. it's so weird...I've been waiting for this for so long, waiting to get out of school, but now...I almost don't want tomorrow to come. I don't want to have to say goodbye to everyone.
Kara and Chelsea started crying in band today, and it was all I could do to not start crying myself. I'm going to be such a mess tomorrow 6th hour...have to figure out if there's any way to fit tissues into my über-full purse.
it's so hard to think of what to say right now...I've got so many thoughts running through my head, but yet I don't know if I could even put any of it into words.
I guess this feels kinda like the last day of camp all over again. only bigger. and I'm really glad we're not playing in band tomorrow, because I definitely wouldn't be able to do it at all. It would be like "Just a Closer Walk" all over again. which is now running through my head. and if it's still there tomorrow...well, there's guaranteed tears right from the start.
I guess that was the requisite "deep thought/reminiscence" senior post. though, who knows, there might be more later...*shrug*
it's hard to believe it's almost over. that after tomorrow, there's a lot of people I'll probably never see again. tomorrow...god, this is it. the end of...everything I've ever known, sort of.
I guess it's just hard to fathom. I feel like it shouldn't be me already. like I should still be one of the kids who's dealing with their older friends going off and graduating, not like I actually am one of the older friends now. it's so weird...I've been waiting for this for so long, waiting to get out of school, but now...I almost don't want tomorrow to come. I don't want to have to say goodbye to everyone.
Kara and Chelsea started crying in band today, and it was all I could do to not start crying myself. I'm going to be such a mess tomorrow 6th hour...have to figure out if there's any way to fit tissues into my über-full purse.
it's so hard to think of what to say right now...I've got so many thoughts running through my head, but yet I don't know if I could even put any of it into words.
I guess this feels kinda like the last day of camp all over again. only bigger. and I'm really glad we're not playing in band tomorrow, because I definitely wouldn't be able to do it at all. It would be like "Just a Closer Walk" all over again. which is now running through my head. and if it's still there tomorrow...well, there's guaranteed tears right from the start.
I guess that was the requisite "deep thought/reminiscence" senior post. though, who knows, there might be more later...*shrug*
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