church 'n' stuff

If an oboe is a duck and a bassoon is a bass duck, would an English horn be an alto duck or a tenor duck?

yeah, this is the stuff I get talking about at church...Ian is way too much fun to talk to. that kid makes me happy.

Seriously, after church today, we spent like 10 minutes talking about how weird my sister is and her random subject changes, as well as band stuff.

and we were discussing varsity jackets, and he jokingly said he wanted a Davison varsity jacket. and he goes to school in Goodrich. that would be very funny.

went to Frankenmuth this afternoon, that was fun. got to eat at Zehnders, yummmm....

and that's really about all I did today.

church was...well, church. it's so routine, it drives me absolutely batty sometimes. I actually paid attention during the whole sermon today, which is a miracle, but I rather wished I hadn't, as I got absolutely nothing out of it. bah. I just don't know anymore.

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they say laughing makes you live longer. at this rate, I'm never going to die.

thoughts on me

so here's more of my random "deep thoughts"...or in other words, I've been speding way too much time thinking about stuff lately and I need to write it down to get it out of my system.

so, thoughts about myself.

Things I don't like about me:
1. my tummy (too chubby)
2. I really think I irritate people. a lot.
3. most of the way I look. with very few exceptions.
4. I can be really boring
5. I'm not funny. I wish I was.
6. I can be really scatterbrained sometimes
7. my singing voice. it sucks. a lot.
8. I tend to babble on about absolutely nothing and end up sounding absolutely stupid when I'm trying to fill up an awkward silence
9. when I'm talking about stuff and I get excited, I tend to practically shriek whatever I'm saying

Things I like about me:
1. my eyes
2. my hair (when it behaves)
3. my taste in music

my talents:
1. falling for guys I know I have absolutely no chance with
2. playing French horn
3. using big words so nobody understands me

Things I really don't understand:
1. why the heck I've never had a boyfriend
2. why people occasionally call me pretty. I'm not.
3. why I feel no fulfillment from religion
4. why people can't see me for me, instead of just seeing me as some walking fountain of all the answers in the universe.
5. why I can't just feel good about myself

so basically, the negatives outweigh the positives. what's up with that? poo.

but it feels good to get that out in the open. somehow it's easier to put stuff like that in here than it is to talk about it to people. though of course comments are always appreciated, and probably would be helpful in cases such as this.