massive update and musings
Mar. 14th, 2005 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
uberniftacularI'm totally in the mood to write right now, except that the one thing I should be writing is the one thing I can'd make myself work on. I was the same way this morning too...wrote a big long reply to the RP that Bryant and I have, but got practically nothing done on my English. I do hope Bry writes back to the RP soon though...lately I've been really needing to write my character, can't really explain why though. The RP is turning out pretty cool so far, though...for all that it's covered approximately 2 hours (or less, I'm really not sure), it's 19 pages. I really do think it's going to end up turning into a novel. Which would be really cool, actually...especially if by some miracle it got published or something. It needs work, obviously, for continuity and grammar and stuff, but that's not too hard to fix. And I really shouldn't be worrying about it right now anyway, as there's no guarantee it'll get that long. Though at the rate we're going, it looks like it might. And I've got some interesting stuff to add to it soon, probably right after the next part Bry writes I think; I've been planning this one scene for a long time now, and I'm really excited that I finally get to write it.
And as for news slightly more grounded in reality...Bry bought me flowers today. No particular reason at all...they just appeared on the windshield of my car when I got out of school. I love it when he does stuff like that, I really do. It took me by surprise, certainly, but it was really sweet. And now my room is pretty again.
It appears that I won't be getting to go to state quiz bowl, because Schuster's being an arse about things. His main argument is based on band being a class and other stuff being extracurricular...he doesn't seem to even realize that symphonic orchestra is an extracurricular activity for winds/percussion. He also doesn't seem to realize that it's not fair to expect people to drop things they've had planned for months just because suddenly we've gone to state. Besides, this is (I think) the first time the Davison quiz bowl team has ever made it to the state level. So let us have our damn team! *fumes*
Every so often in the past couple days I've gotten this weird sense that people are mad at me. I think Schuster's mad at me because I want to do quiz bowl. I felt like my parents were mad at me when I came home from Bry's today, even though I told them exactly where I was and when I was going to come home, and that's the way it's supposed to work. And yet, somehow, even though it feels like people aren't happy with me, I'm still managing to be content and stuff. I'm not quite sure how this works, actually. I know that if this had happened a week ago, I'd probably be in tears right now...but I'm not. I've been happy for almost a week now, which is quite an improvement. I've no idea where it came from (though it's interesting to note that the return of happiness coincided with the first day the sun came back out), but I hope it stays.
Laura brought a bride magazine to lunch today, so everyone at our lunch table spent the entire time talking about weddings and stuff like that. I've kinda been thinking about it ever since. Thinking about how much I really would love to get married. Not yet, obviously, but someday. In 4 years or so, I should think. By then I'll be done with the first bit of college, and perhaps by that point I'll actually be ready to move out of my parents' house. I think I want a church wedding. That's weird, considering I'm not really all that fond of my church, but I do want to get married in a church. Actually, my dream is getting married in a big cathedral...one of the big old pretty ones like they've got in England...but I really don't think that would even be possible. Funny thing is, you know how there's that stereotype that most girls have had their weddings planned since the age of seven or something? I'd never really even put any thought into it at all until recently. Heck, until this year I never even thought I'd get married. *shrug* I really do want to, though. Just...not yet.
Wow. Chel*Kat just IMed me...I haven't talked to her since...months ago. I know I've talked to her once or twice since camp, but not recently. So that's kind of cool.
I should work on my English paper, since that's technically the reason I'm even on the computer tonight...but I just can't concentrate on it.
...whoa. Jon just IMed me too. Geez, it's like a reunion.
I started this entry at 8:41. It is now 9:37. Perhaps I should stop writing now?
And as for news slightly more grounded in reality...Bry bought me flowers today. No particular reason at all...they just appeared on the windshield of my car when I got out of school. I love it when he does stuff like that, I really do. It took me by surprise, certainly, but it was really sweet. And now my room is pretty again.
It appears that I won't be getting to go to state quiz bowl, because Schuster's being an arse about things. His main argument is based on band being a class and other stuff being extracurricular...he doesn't seem to even realize that symphonic orchestra is an extracurricular activity for winds/percussion. He also doesn't seem to realize that it's not fair to expect people to drop things they've had planned for months just because suddenly we've gone to state. Besides, this is (I think) the first time the Davison quiz bowl team has ever made it to the state level. So let us have our damn team! *fumes*
Every so often in the past couple days I've gotten this weird sense that people are mad at me. I think Schuster's mad at me because I want to do quiz bowl. I felt like my parents were mad at me when I came home from Bry's today, even though I told them exactly where I was and when I was going to come home, and that's the way it's supposed to work. And yet, somehow, even though it feels like people aren't happy with me, I'm still managing to be content and stuff. I'm not quite sure how this works, actually. I know that if this had happened a week ago, I'd probably be in tears right now...but I'm not. I've been happy for almost a week now, which is quite an improvement. I've no idea where it came from (though it's interesting to note that the return of happiness coincided with the first day the sun came back out), but I hope it stays.
Laura brought a bride magazine to lunch today, so everyone at our lunch table spent the entire time talking about weddings and stuff like that. I've kinda been thinking about it ever since. Thinking about how much I really would love to get married. Not yet, obviously, but someday. In 4 years or so, I should think. By then I'll be done with the first bit of college, and perhaps by that point I'll actually be ready to move out of my parents' house. I think I want a church wedding. That's weird, considering I'm not really all that fond of my church, but I do want to get married in a church. Actually, my dream is getting married in a big cathedral...one of the big old pretty ones like they've got in England...but I really don't think that would even be possible. Funny thing is, you know how there's that stereotype that most girls have had their weddings planned since the age of seven or something? I'd never really even put any thought into it at all until recently. Heck, until this year I never even thought I'd get married. *shrug* I really do want to, though. Just...not yet.
Wow. Chel*Kat just IMed me...I haven't talked to her since...months ago. I know I've talked to her once or twice since camp, but not recently. So that's kind of cool.
I should work on my English paper, since that's technically the reason I'm even on the computer tonight...but I just can't concentrate on it.
...whoa. Jon just IMed me too. Geez, it's like a reunion.
I started this entry at 8:41. It is now 9:37. Perhaps I should stop writing now?
