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So yesterday I had kind of an odd/silly/weird experience at work. Kinda freaked me out a little, but I think you all will be entertained by it, lol. (storytime! yay!)

There's this guy that comes into the library sometimes that obviously plays D&D...he's got all of the library's D&D manuals either checked out or on hold right now. He was at the library last night. When he was getting ready to check stuff out, both me and Cindy (the LA that was working with me) had a couple people in line in front of us, so he was kinda hanging out at the back of Cindy's line waiting to see which one of us would get done with our people first. Anyway, he ended up in my line, so I ended up getting into a conversation with him about D&D, about how long each of us had been playing...he was talking about how he's looking for a group and all that stuff, and asking if our group played at the Red Dragon or what, and I told him how we just meet at each other's houses because it's more convenient. It was kind of a longish conversation, but hey, that's cool, it's fun to find other people that play D&D. And then we got to talking about how massive the manuals are, he was saying how they're a pain to carry around, and I told him "yeah, I know, my boyfriend regularly carries around a backpack full of them when we play"...and pretty quick after that he left, with a "have a nice day," because woah, people actually know how to be polite sometimes.

So then I went into the back room to put stuff back there...and I heard Cindy and George laughing about something out front. Then Cindy comes back to the back room and informs me that the guy had been sorta hovering, waiting for my line to go away (which to me it just looked like he was waiting to see which line would go away first, but she says she purposely didn't try to talk to him and see if she could help him cuz it looked like he was waiting for me), and she's like "he was all set to ask you out, but then you said that thing about your boyfriend and he decided it was time for him to go" or whatever...I don't remember exactly what it was that she said, but it was odd anyway. And I was like, "Wait. What just happened here?"

And yeah, I honestly don't really know what to think about all this. I mean, on one hand, I'm not really sure if I believe Cindy or not, cuz from my perspective it looked like he was just being friendly, and was as entertained as I was to find someone else who plays D&D. On the other hand, though...I already know that I'm terrible at reading people. Cindy is kind of a girly-girl type person, so I would expect her to notice stuff like that. And apparently even GEORGE noticed...so...yeah. I officially have no people skills. And there's other weirdness involved too, cuz other than Bry, this is the first guy that I've known to actually show interest in me. I guess it's nice to know that occasionally people notice that I'm female, but at the same time...it's just weird. Cuz I'm not used to people being interested (or, at least, knowing that people are interested...for all that I had to be TOLD about it...).

I kinda feel bad about this whole thing. I mean, first of all, I don't pay attention to what I'm doing enough to really know if I came off as seeming more interested than I actually was or something (I've always been useless at flirting, so I honestly wouldn't recognize if that was the way I was acting if I didn't mean to, if that makes any sense. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I worry that I might be coming off as flirtatious when I'm just trying to be friendly). After all, I'm actually the one that started the whole conversation (cuz it's fun to talk to people about D&D...I did the same thing talking to Amanda's uncle a couple weeks ago...though last night at least I managed not to talk the poor guy's ear off). And second of all, as I already mentioned, I have no people skills, so I honestly didn't even notice that this guy (I think his name is Shaun, if anybody cares) was acting interested. So I feel bad about all this, like...if I'd noticed that he was interested, I could've let him down a little easier, instead of just throwing random references to Bry into the conversation. I kinda feel like a terribly mean person about all this right now.

And I really feel bad because he seems like a pretty cool guy. Like...I'd invite him to join our group for our next campaign if that wouldn't be the most awkward experience ever known to mankind...He said he's been playing for 5 years, so it would be nifty to have another experienced player in the group. Too bad it would be weird and awkward and stuff.

I was telling Bry and Tom about this yesterday, they both seemed relatively entertained by it. Bry was downright amused, really...*shrug* I guess it's a little funny, but I still feel bad about it. And I realized that I just...don't have people skills. At all.

The other weirdness story hardly matters, but I'll mention it anyway. Some random army recruitment guy called me today. And he was so...fake that it was kinda funny. Like, he was acting like he was so interested in my life and everything ("so what made you choose this career idea?" "Oh, I'm sorry to hear your friend died of cancer" etc.), but it was kinda obvious that he didn't really care. I laughed when I finally got off the phone (after like...I dunno...a 5 minute conversation before he actually got to the point), because it was just so ridiculous. Though I've come to the conclusion that I really need to come up with some actual really good reason for not wanting to be in the army (besides not being a big fan of the government and/or besides being a big fan of not dying) so that they'll quit calling me.

Well. Back to studying for chemistry. Hope you enjoyed my story, lol. (Who knows, maybe I'll actually get comments on my journal this time! Wouldn't that be nice?)