I woke up in a really good mood this morning, and have been like this all day. it's great. this has been a wonderful weekend in a lot of ways, I can't really even explain some of it. Friday night and yesterday afternoon I spent a lot of time with Bry, and I've seriously never felt closer to him than I have in the past couple days. we're having so many wonderful conversations, so much time to just talk, about anything and everything, it's pretty amazing.
last night was the party at Rachel's house, which was also extremely fun. there weren't too many people there, but that just makes it better, when it's a little group. we sat by the fire for a while, then played Apples to Apples...then spent like an hour and a half walking around Rachel's neighbourhood in the dark. I love walking around at night, but I hardly ever get a chance to because I don't like doing it alone. during that walk, we all talked about so much stuff...Loren and were reminiscing about marching band things, people were discussing Halloween, Loren and Travis were being generically adorable most of the time, interspersed with moments of disturbing innuendo that I think I could really have done without...we discovered that my mind occasionally joins everyone else's in the sewer if it's late enough at night and I've been fed enough chocolate ("it's Zeus! I mean, what else did he ever do?")...
maybe it's the weather. I love fall, a lot. sweatshirt weather makes me so happy. reminds me of going to the apple orchard with my family, of Halloween, of jumping into leaf piles and destroying all the raking my parents had just done...and knowing that, after the day is over, I have a nice warm bed and cozy pajamas to curl up in and sleep.
I've been feeling nostalgic lately. the weather and everything...it's been bringing back a lot of memories, or sometimes even just little flashes of images, or a brief feeling...I really can't even explain it, but I love it.
and, on top of all this good feeling...I'm reading "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" right now. it's just a feel-good kind of book. and I've never known random teen fiction books to be as deep as this one. well, deep isn't the word I'm looking for, but I can't think of the right word right now. but there was just one paragraph that seemed...I dunno. it just seemed to fit. I can't explain why, or how, it just did.
"I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't."